Just About Everything

I started off today on a bad note...lets just say I am feeling down and depressed and and there is no way that this situation that has brought about this condition, will change. So what choices do i have? Feel miserable...take a day off...wallow in self pity and then feel stronger about facing things? Or do I accept this situation and move on...(this one is tough) But finally, I know I have to accept it. If not today... maybe in a few days... So, do I waste a beautiful day like this on feeling sad or do i find ways to get myself out of this situation so that this stops bothering me completely. Easier said than done...I know:( But do i have any other choice?

Afternoons have always been very blue for me:( Since I was a child...the thought of afternoon would depress me...i guess it dates back to the days when I would come back from school and have my lunch and then do my homework or get some sleep. (Not necessarily in that order) But both the tasks were not my favourites of course. Play was certainly not allowed:( I remember looking out of the window and waiting for evening to set in...when everything would feel good...there would be activity (I guess for me activity translated to play) ...and the crows would stop their "caws""caws" at least for a while (the sound would depress me always!) After so many years, afternoons still has the same effect on me. At work I barely realize the onset of afternoons so it does not matter. But when I am at home and if I am alone with no books to read or any good films to watch...I again get into afternoon depression:( I like mornings, evenings and nights a lot but afternoons...i don'...